The other day the boys went for a "run" around the college campus near our house. They had a BALL, but Brody fell down and skinned his knee. He had to get band-aids on it ASAP. He wore those Dora band-aids all night and to church the next day. As it began to fall off, I took it off. He threw the BIGGEST fit and wanted his band-aid back on even if it wasn't covering the scrape anymore.
Yesterday, my band-aids were falling off, too.
With 2 little boys, a full-time job as mom, a part-time job as teacher, and a full-time job as a minister's wife I try to keep the band-aids on. But when things are slow (even for a moment) the scrapes are exposed and it begins to hurt.
I have watched Grey's Anatomy from the beginning. Way back in the day pre-kids, my girlfriends and I would get together each Thursday night. This week, Meredith spoke my language. I feel a little different than her as I really am truly happy for all my friends that are pregnant. I know what a special gift that is and I am not jealous of their happiness. However, I feel like I have another full-time job full of temperatures, surge kits,blood work, and a calendar full of circles and numbers. It is WORK. Sometimes, I grow weary of waiting. I feel like I have learned that lesson and I begin to doubt..... will I ever have another child.... will the boys ever be BIG brothers.....is it time to let go of all the baby stuff in the attic.....
2 comments:
Sweet friend, I have been thinking of and praying for you. You are an amazing mama, just as I knew you would be. I am excited for the day when Dylan and Brody get to wear Big Brother shirts, and I will continue to pray! Thank you for sharing your sweet heart, and for being honest about the good times and the bad. You are an encouragement to me.
Precious Leah,
You are such an incredible woman. Your words here are authentic and cutting and so close to the heart of God. I am so sorry you're hurting and I pray God draws near to you in the pain. Thank you for being real. We love you.
Sarah
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