Promise

So back at the end of 2011, I decided 2012 would be the year of the promise. 2011 was filled with great loss of so many things. I was being drawn to that word.

PROMISE.

You can read about that here.

2012 has brought lots of promises. Michael and I began a new journey following the calling to be a preacher. It's 10+ hours away from family and we don't know a soul here. Michael has been wanting to follow this since 2004 so it definitely marked a new day.

However, May marked 3 years of trying for a baby. Even with a new diet I was getting nowhere. Actually, I'm only getting sicker. I saw my rhumatologist in May and he thinks I have developed Crones or something else on top of the other diseases.

It was the first week in our rent house and I was physically just feeling terrible! My arthritis was worse than it ever had been, I couldn't eat anything, I felt like I was being hit by a truck...just bad.
One night in June I had finally reached that point. The point where my idea of the promise and God's idea were not matching. We even had to have to talk with the boys about God answering prayers. As much as it hurt ( and it was like a piece deep in my soul was crying out) I told Michael that I just couldn't have a baby like this. With me being in such horrible shape, no promise* of even being able to conceive...it was time to let go of the "old promise"

So imagine my

SHOCK

AWE

BEWILDERMENT

when we saw that there was a

PROMISE

Growing inside.

This miracle baby will be making the miraculous debut in March.

PROMISE. 

It's what the Lord gave me.